hat you learn is what you earn
There are no answers offered except: Yourself
Remember this and the path you seek will be found

The sweet scent of silence all over
And all the sounds to see
This room is you and I
It's all we were and will be
Just look at the paintings and see

Spare your mind the silence
From which you'll lose more than you'll gain
Paint yourself with the sounds you lack,
Mix past with today and soon you will know

Know how you'll change
Starting all over again in a special way
A certain confusion as the secrets unfold
Forget all you learned and were told
Then you'll change

Come, walk with me now and understand
What you see here is nothing and all
Walk with me now, understand
What you see here is nothing and all

Look around and see my paintings
Be sure to take your time
In my room
With

The sweet scent of silence all over
And all the sounds to see
This room is you and I
Open your eyes and feel the change


3. His Cold Touch

[I. Within these walls]

Alone... afraid...
In the dark of the corner he will try to hide his shame...
Where it shows to no one
Nothing wrong in being scared, it will all fall into place
According to his dad
"But son, you just can't tell anyone..."
And there, deep in the night
He gets to kiss the floor once again
And though he fears his father's eyes
That is nothing compared to
The cold touch of his hands...
Of his hands...
His cold touch...

"Wipe those silly tears from your eyes
That show when you look at me
Can't you see that I love you?
I always have and I always will"
You can never turn away from
The hand that rocked your cradle
I've been there through all you have seen
You would be nothing without me"
And there, deep in the night
He gets to kiss the floor once again
And though he fears his father's eyes
That is nothing compared to
The cold touch of his hands...
Of his hands...
His cold touch...
His cold touch...

[II. A silent outside]

You and your staring eyes...
How come you don't welcome me anymore?
I'm still the one you embraced... but now you're disgraced?
A silent outside I once called my home...

Blinded by the shame he turns against the world outside
He just can't seem to understand that they are all just helping hands

While the world was still asleep, he had to pay on his hands and knees
And when the sun came to chase the night away
He would just lie there in pain and pray

He's lost in the void within
He's walking in a circle of nothing
All alone against a silent inside

You and your judging eyes...
How come I have changed while still being the same?
The child you embraced... today a disgrace?
A silent outside I once called my friends...

Blinded by the shame he turns against the world outside
He just can't seem to understand that they are all just helping hands
He walks away now, all alone to find his way
He knows the answers he seeks will not come easily...

A lonely child, against the world outside
He will walk on the path of the abused...
With a smile... to hide...


4. ...



5. Leaving Yesterday

The truth in your eyes promised me
A life far away from yesterday
In you I see the future...
In our special place we will build our own dream

You're the moon in my deep blue sky
Through the darkest of nights
Your light spreads across my land
On my fields we'll stand hand in hand

Oh, so we are both night and day
We'll watch the winter snow unite with the summer rain
During times of our yesterday we will find a way to look ahead
Through the darkness, our past darkness, we will stand hand in hand
And we'll be there together as one...

Come with me and leave the rain behind, I will carry you
Sheltered by our love we'll leave yesterday

Time won't exist as we're heading for an eternity
Flying through the unknown skies painted in the beauty of you and I...

Breathing a pleasant silence tonight
The sound of your breath carries the light
You're what I was put here for
And finally I know just how to smile

You're the moon in my deep blue sky
Through the darkest of nights
Your light spreads across my land
On my fields we'll stand hand in hand
Our love will be our lifelong map
And our road will lead us to eternity...

Come with me and leave the rain behind, I will carry you
Sheltered by our love we'll leave yesterday


6. Towards Loss

Inside out, upside down...
Reality is killing me
It's all a blur and it's moving fast
Doing 95, still I end up last
No time to stop or even slow down
Expectations are far too high
My machinery got to keep spinning around
('Round and around)

Won't you listen to me once, only once
There is no way for me to be everywhere
I know you're sad but I hope you're waiting
Time is not a friend these days so please understand!

(Inside out, upside down
Reality is killing me
It's all a blur and it's moving fast
Doing 95, still I end up last)
No time to stop or even slow down
Expectations are far too high
My machinery got to keep spinning around
('Round and around)

As I race through my life, I am crying
For I know what I'm losing
Helpless I look away

Running from his past life, still trying to forget it
But now today has come here to slow him while he's running
The challenge of remembering the things that are important
It seems to be the ending of something he was winning
A young boy meets the grown world, a grown man meets the memories
A fact that leads to losing the one thing that's important
His loved one waits a long time but that can't be forever
And when the dance is over he finds himself so lonely and weak

(My life's truth must be unseen as
I race through the now at full speed)

As I raced through my life, I was crying
I knew what I was losing
Helpless I looked away
Now my life's cold and barren again
I'm the child from my past life
Helpless I release the memories


7. The Storm Inside

I've opened up my scars, I've released my past life
I've surrendered to a rain that speaks of a coming storm
Looking back, did I ever know how to look at life and how to appreciate it?
Guess I was lost in a time of taking things for granted and not looking around
I was lost in myself, oh, so lost in myself

So today I'm left on my own, my recent days have all been the same
My sanity will soon be consumed by this loneliness
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head
I'm lying in bed, going out of my head

Standing at the door to a place of my own
I will not ask of you, what you asked of me
I'll hide away from all the reaching hands
So that my past will remain untold
I don't need your helping hands
I'm sure I will find my way back

Like a raging storm, my past keeps coming on
Like a thousand daggers, my memories pierce me
My body and soul unite in pain
It all keeps increasing, all up until it is suddenly gone

The storm may be gone but it's not for long, it speaks to me
I'm granted just a short embrace of rest and peace

I've lost the race against my past
It's come for me laughing, to make me pay at last
Still all those years speak to me
I'll never open up and bare my shame to you

I've opened up the door to a place of my own
I did not ask of you, what you asked of me
I'll hide away from all the reaching hands
So that my past will remain untold
All through the years I've been walking alone
Except for the love that brought light in my life
I'll spare her this me and leave on my own
With the door closed behind me...

Was it all a mistake?
Should I have listened to you?
All of those helping hands
I kind of miss them now
Now that they're gone


8. Coma

Machines that make me breathe, I just can't stand their terrible scream
I'm stumbling through smoke-filled rooms
With only darkness ahead, I wish I was dead
Drowned in a distance, I'm so safe and sound
Damn well protected from all those around
Seeking the life that was taken from me
Still all I see is a man on his knees

Although I'm asleep, can you feel I'm here?
Lost in this place, screaming for you

Back on my feet when a distant light
Brings me some hope and a strength that had died
A doorway that speaks of the world I once left
A final way out and a final way back
Then a sudden change makes the light start to fade
I need to run but I stumble instead
The light disappears as I lay on the ground
My last hope of freedom is turned into none...

Will I ever speak again, love again?
Will I ever leave my mind?
I am trapped inside myself, far from the outside
Why won't they let me die?
I'm tired as I lay here bleeding on the ground

Breathe

(We're the machines, the only friends around
Stay for a while and let us keep you alive)

Breathe

Here I am, I'm lost in this place
Wish I could just say goodbye
But you're not around to hear my cries...

Will I ever speak again, love again?
Will I ever leave my mind?
I am trapped inside myself, far from the outside
Why won't they just let me die?

Die


9. Release



10. Post Life

My life is born in pain
Pain weaves fragile threads into dreams,
Skies that are annihilated by
The infinity of the galaxy

Infinity, man's unsolved riddle in eternity
But the fairytale of our life
That became reality
Will never be destroyed

Our hands tied together
For a harsh life
When we met on a cold winter's night
Where only stars witnessed our happiness

Lay three red roses on my grave
They are for you once you follow me
Then I will wait by the gate
Which I was denied in my youth
The roses are three words
I love you