my death I fly

A light in front of me appears
I'm at the end yet here it begins
Slowly I crawl away from the shining light
But something seems to hold me back
Halfway to death, into eternity
The light feels so warm, embraces my dying soul

My dying soul will enter the unknown
Harmony, this fear will disappear
The longing in my eyes for peace eternally
Tearing my soul in two, tears me apart

Eternity in front of me the light is all I see
Eternity devours me, will I be free

A doubt inside of me arise
Return to life, or facing my destiny
I feel myself drawn to the other side
Entering a world of light
Relief in my my mind, relieves my entire soul
At last I let go, I flow into emptiness

The passage to eternity

So here I stand
In this rain of falling tears
Time stands still
Everythig around is dead
I cannot see
I'm embraced by nothingness
But do I want
To find the passage back to life


2. Depression

Depression touches me, deep inside
Emptiness fills my mind
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, end is near
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust

No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality

Confusion rules me, leads astray
Happiness so far away
Loss of interest, loss of hope
Life pass by far to slow
Loss of senses, apathy
Shades of black blindfolds me

Causing wounds
That time won't heal
A grim reality
Will now reveal

Now life seems to cease
Nothing will be the same again

No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality

Illusions leads me to agony
Trapped inside, disharmony
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, ending nears
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust


3. Tears

Tears from my eyes
Burning my skin, down on their way
Bitter tears
Filled with dreams, they flow away

I had it all
Like water it slipped between my hands
It disappeared
Lonely and cold, abandoned I stand

All I was living for
Now suddenly is gone
All my hopes and thoughts
That I had were wrong

Dreams made my world
I raised a wall, with visions filled
Before my eyes
It turned to dust, this lie I've built

I lay myself down
I close my eyes, and resign
Feelings die
I leave my past far behind

So now it seems
Like my tears will never stop to fall
With tearfilled eyes
I watch my dreams just slip away

Let me pass
Away into eternal sleep
Greeted by silence
Embraced by darkness, by arms so deep

I let it go
I'm falling weightless, emotion flies
I fade away
The wind softly moves me as I die...


4. The Chill Within

You yearn for the sleep that will never come
You cry out for relief
Visions of a future that you'll never see
Memories of the past
Traces of sanity are soon to be gone
Confusion is all around
Trying to seek new ways out of this
Only to fail once again

The illumination is a false betrayal
You fall deep into the mind that will destroy you
Dying seems to be the only way to end it
Try to clear your blurry sight but there is no use

Suffer day and night
Slowly my mind will collapse
Fearing the last day of life

Darkness is falling inside your mind
Losing your last hope
You'll have to go far beyond the veils of life
To find the truth
You stare into the past and try to understand
The answers disappear
Lost in yourself there's no way to get out
Slowly you'll fade away

The illumination is a false betrayal
You fall deep into the mind that will destroy you
Dying seems to be the only way to end it
Try to clear your blurry sight but there is no use

Suffer day and night
Fearing the last day of life


5. Visions

Visions sweep across my mind
The final call I hear
Darkness falls eternally
Inside embraced with fear
A growing fear comes over me
Scared of what I'll find
Darkest recollections
Death intrudes my mind

With open eyes I shall behold
I’m not afraid to see

What will I find, who will I meet
What visions will I see
Chaos sinks into my mind
What will become of me
Descend into the other world
The place of final peace
A new dimension far away
Where everything will cease

Now, silently I’ll march towards the end
Life is hidden well beyond the veils of pain

Go beyond, experience
What no one did before
To the place where time is dead
And stay forevermore
Darkest place, emptiness
No visions left to see
This is the place where I will spend
Eternal destiny

I close my eyes, I now have seen
What will become of me


6. Twisted Emotions

As the moon lays its veil
Over the blanket of snow
The dark and ice-cold water
Swirling by deep below
I stare with absent eyes
Into foam so white
Water now in furious rage
I'm paralyzed by this sight

Waves storms as if in dance
Making a living bed
They climb and rise so high
Only to fall down dead
Chaos strikes my mind
A dreamlike battle inside
And though my conscience shivers
My body wants to fly

So fragile is it, the flame of life
That burns within us, so deep inside
It is so easy for me to fall
It is so easy to lose it all

So close now, so easy
I want to see, yet stay alive
Emotions frustrate me
Too scared to see what dwells behind

My twisted mind-cries
This weird emotion-I defy

Just a single step
And into the end I'll fall
Life is just a shadow
It's so easy to lose it all
I silently sigh and turn,
around and walk away
I've finally decided to live another day

So close now, so easy
I want to see, yet stay alive
Emotions frustrate me
Too scared to see what dwells behind


7. Forever Gone

Why, tell me why, we all have to die

Pain and sorrow, inside of me
Resurrection, will never be
No holy father, no holy son
Can bring you back now, forever gone

Deathly loss rips apart everything
that once was living
Nevermore happiness, hopeless thoughts
overwhelms me
Sorrowfilled agony, die inside,
deadly silence
Desperate cries inside, no one can
ease my sorrow

Open up your eyes and you will see
Nothing will remain eternally
Apathy arise inside of me
Forced into this new reality

Silence surrounds me, mind filled with fear
Darkness approaches, death calls I hear

Deathly loss rips apart everything
that once was living
Nevermore happiness, hopeless thoughts
overwhelms me
Sorrowfilled agony, die inside,
deadly silence
Desperate cries inside, no one can
ease my sorrow


8. Passed Away

Soon after you finally passed away
Your body will rot, start to decay
No way to stop this repulsive destiny
Maggots will devour what’s left of you and me
Intrude the inner organs the flesh will not be saved
The putrid stench surrounds the place where you are laid
The veins that once were filled with blood so strong and red
Have now been dried up, such a shame it’s to be dead

Now you have become a gruesome picture of yourself
Bacteria will revel, infesting every cell
Your eyes have been consumed, not much remaining of your face
You’ll slowly disappear, death has no feeling for disgrace
Even though your life has ceased the abscess will arise
Cover all your body, grow to extensive size
The sight of you is now enough to drive a mind insane
Blank bones and rotten flesh is all that will remain

Flesh begins to rot
Limbs are falling off
Bones begin to show
Skin has been dissolved
Should have done as they said
Chosen the flames instead

Disappearing like millions before
Unavoidable fate
Don’t wanna end in disgrace
But now it’s too late

Passed away
Passed away

All that will remain


9. Asleep

Asleep again
Darkness is ruling
Within my mind
I feel I'm flying slowly
A dream so real
Alive and frightening
A grotesque sight
My senses shiver deep inside

These nightly scenes
Now twisting my eyes
I see it clear
Painted up before me
Forgotten place
Buried beneath sea
Mountain high
The lord of evil I behold

In silence I dream
Of things yet unseen
Through aeons I see
With closed eyes, in dreams

Deep in me, cries
Terrified
Lame inside, dead
Cannot fight

Awake at last
I'm cold and shaking
So terrified
I stare at my own hands
I have created
Deep in my sleep
A sick reflection
Of the horrid things I've seen