ng the beginning...


2. Sarah

Sweet little Sarah, dressed in innocence
Trying hard to hide the tears running down her face
Sweet little Sarah, all scared inside
In the middle of a nightmare, wide awake...
Though a long time ago, the memories are all so vivid...

The girl they all knew is fading away
She's turning black inside
Victim of indifference and betrayal
A mere shadow of her past
Crawling beneath the feet of our world

Inside her scream the echoes of them laughing
She's got nowhere to run or hide
Look at her porcelain eyes, they're breaking
Oh, she is breaking!
Right here, beneath the feet of our ignorance

"Scream for us, bleed for us
make your way into yourself"
"Crawl away, hide away
turn around and see us laugh"

(Let us break those porcelain eyes
And pound our words right through your skull)
"Pour your life into wide open hands,
and see it soak into the ground"

(Let us tear that young heart out
And watch it die before our eyes)
"Close your eyes
lie down and prepare to
die alone in your deserted land"


3. New Best Friends

Just when she thought that things couldn't get much worse
Just when she thought that things would get better
It all returns with reinforcements from home

Now, driven away by her flesh and blood
All that is left is a growing distrust
Wrapped in despair and raped emotion...
She cries to Him...

"Why won't you save me? Why won't you help me?
With every ounce of me I hope that you will come
And save me or just help me
Because deep inside my heart I still believe in you"

The weight of her sorrow is putting her soul to rest
The pounding of her heart deafens her perception
She's walking astray, lost within the maze of her mind

Like the break of a morning, they appear to her
Just like snowflakes in beautiful winter
They're making sure that she's alright
Far from the pain and suffering

"Why wouldn't you save me? Why wouldn't you help me?
With every ounce of me I hoped that you would come
And save me or just help me...
Because deep inside my heart I did believe in you"

"You made me despise you by crushing my faith in you
But when no one else would care for me, they were there
They spared me the pain and allowed me to breathe again
I found the sanctuary I craved in my new best friends"


4. Tightrope

[Instrumental]


5. Carousel

"Oh what a ride... I can't believe it...
Felt so free... inside...
A new beginning? Dare I believe it?
My friends advise me to step inside..."

She's trapped inside a carousel
That will spin her 'round and force her right towards the end
She's in for the ride of her lifetime
Sadly nothing could ever make her turn while there's still time

(Headed for the sky, never asking why)
Never looking back she just craves for more and more
(Finding peace of mind with those of her kind)
Dancing with the souls that she thought she would never find

"Why should I care to look into the rear view mirror
When all that view has to offer me is misery?
I've come so far, I've feel so free
I've been offered a sip of life without the bitter taste of pain"

"My reality is flying through the air of my dreams
Dreams where I am the alpha and the omega"

"Stepped into a carousel
To lift me up and bring me closer to the stars
I'm in for the ride of my lifetime
Nothing could ever force me back to the ground"

"(Headed for the sky, giving up past life)
I'm never going back to the hell I called my life
(Finding peace of mind with those of her kind)
'Cause now I'm dancing with the friends that I though I would never find"

"Let me go now, let me leave your life
Let me feel free, let me see with own eyes
I will never be the one you'll love
You will never be the ones I'll depend upon"


6. Trust

"How I've longed for this... for my loneliness to die
There's no need to be afraid the enemy has been slain today"

"All this trust I found keeps me hanging on to life
There's a place I never saw hidden deep inside myself"

There's so much more to this than what she knows
She fails to see the truth through served
The blind led by a blind into despair
Despair dressed in a vow of joy...

"Free a last... I've found some of my own kind
Together we will fly away, here comes that rush again..."


7. Pantomime

There he stands, among the rest but still far above
Speaking to her with words unknown, reaching deep within
Lead astray by those who judge they finally find what they seek
Dancing through the life they thought they would never find

"Please be careful when you touch
You see, I've never been on this trip before"

"I'll show you a place you didn't think existed
I'll be your guide and shoulder to lean on
Just let go of your fears and surrender to the fire
Together we'll feed the flames of our passion"

Over and over again he unleashes his fire upon her
But the hunger he feeds it just craves for more
All she can take is barely enough
When the fever inside is taking control
All she may have is what she will take no matter the pain she'll not end up outside again

.. (The flames keep getting) higher and higher, higher and higher...

Lost and carefree, afloat on life they feed on the flames
Reality seems just like a dream and the dreams like reality
They're further away from their own yesterday than they ever been before
Further astray not parting night from day, leading stars of a pantomime

They're caught in their play as a life builds inside
Aroused in the act he doesn't know what she hides
Standing amazed by this gift from above
Could it possibly be that He's graced her with love?

But the question remains and it cuts through her heart
Will it strengthen their love or tear them apart?
There in his eyes his anger runs wild
As she tells him the words "I carry your... child..."


8. Red Canvas

[Instrumental]


9. Dusk

Upon a cold floor in a filthy room
In a river of blood she cries...


10. Tied With Sin

"Finally I've paid the price I always knew I'd had to pay
And with all these visions of my past surrounding me
It's no question why
I never dared to ask myself why I should let them feed on me
I chose the easy way of hiding deep inside and flee"

"This aching pain inside of me is something I must learn to live
No confessions will undo my sins; I destroyed my life and the one within
If only I had dared back then to reach inside and trust my strength
I never knew I had it in me or was it I refused to see?"

Reality has finally shattered all of her innocence
All she was and lived has now come crashing upon her
She once had such porcelain eyes, sadly unable to see through the lies

"Here, tied with my sin and my pain, it's all so clear to me
I see now that life, as I knew it, was just a lie covered in shame"

"Still that lie is a part of me, am I really able to break free?
I'm afraid this craving will be my cell, the place my soul will be laid to rest
Will I dare to face the enemy, take control and set me free?
Or take the easy way of hiding deep inside and flee?"

Reality has finally shattered all of here innocence
All she was and lived has now come crashing upon her
She once had such porcelain eye, sadly unable to see through the lies

"Here, tied with my sin and my pain, it's all so clear to me
I see now that life, as I knew it, was just a lie covered in shame
But still, wise from the truth, can I leave the place I called my own?
I guess life, as I never knew it, has forced me to face my worst enemy... my fear..."


11. The Final Redemption

Now that I've lost you and failed in every way,
And I've given the last of faith to chance
It tears my soul to face my failure
And to know what it finally ended in...

Here I am, lost but so much wiser than I ever was before
Through the pain of the price I paid to open my eyes
I am reminded to keep myself chained to the wall of life

Losing you was to be my final redemption...

All this warmth present in this one place of fear and pain
Makes me think that black and white could easily melt into one
So kind and gentle is the touch of the ones I used to fear
Please grant me strength to face my saviours, take their hands and offer my confession

Here I am, lost but so much wiser than I ever was before
And though I'm lost, led astray by me, I'm on my way back home...
Through the pain of the price I paid to open my eyes
I am reminded to keep myself chained to the wall of life
Everywhere that I look I stare into misery
I am reminded to stay on the road that I left so long ago

Losing you was to be my final redemption...