Decembre Noir

the depth of the night
Like so many times before
So many times pouring rain

Through the depth of the night
In search of hope
Many miles away from home
When the rain begins to fall

Across cold limits of self-doubts and loneliness
Surrounded by the sound of the pouring rain
Through the depth of the night
In search of hope
Every night I go away
In search of hope

Maybe that's the only chance to forget the days of pain
That's a chance to find someone who leads me through the pouring rain

When the rain begins to fall
Maybe that's the only chance to forget the days of pain
Every day I turn away
When the rain begins to fall
That's a chance to find someone who leads me through the rain
I go away

In search of hope
Just breathing the world around me
There's nothing left

When the rain begins to fall
Maybe that's the only chance to forget the days of pain
Every day I turn away
When the rain begins to fall
That's a chance to find someone who leads me through the rain
The pouring rain
When the rain begins to fall

Every day I turn away
When the rain begins to fall
I'm just waiting for the night
Like so many times before
Pouring rain

2. Autumn King
This is the time when I lose my thoughts in the clouds
Warm days are vanished in the wind
Dead leaves fall down like tears
From the arms of discouraged trees

Upon the rusted throne of my existence
Here I am alone under a funeral sky
So I count the hours on this rusted throne
Until the sun will burn my eyes

Embraced by the robe of another weeping night
I raise my fists to a darkened sky
So I count the hours until the sun will burn my eyes
For the first time I can breathe the air like never before
Embraced by the robe of another weeping night
I count my final hours

I'm the autumn king

Old and frail
I'm the autumn king
The last human being
I'm the autumn king of this world

Under a funeral sky
Here I am alone
On my rusted throne
Counting time under a funeral sky
A weeping night
All loved ones died
Counting time under a funeral sky

Count the time until the sun burns my eyes
Nothing is forever

This is the time when I lose myself
But now I'm feeling that I am the autumn king

3. Barricades
So much is lost
No hope in sight
This life is cold
A veil full of night

Barricades
I wish I could forgive myself
Barricades
For my own mistakes

Under a starless sky
In the darkness
I am a broken crownless king
A monument of sadness
In a rigid prayer pose
A thousand nails on my tongue
I'm an extinct fire
A remnant of the fallen sun
I want to be the light again
Maybe just for a while

I am a stranger in my own world
Everything seems so unreal
Within this godless savage garden
Behind self-chosen walls of inner doubts
I still breathe the poisoned air of my past
Countless wrong decisions
I am the ugly in between
The living evidence of wasted years

I am an extinct fire
A remnant of the fallen sun
In a rigid prayer pose
I feel a thousand nails upon my tongue

Barricades

But so much is lost
No hope in sight
This life feels so cold
A veil full of night

Barricades, I need much more barricades
Higher walls for my protection
Barricades, oh how I despise my dails barricades

I am an extinct fire
A remnant of the fallen sun
In a rigid prayer pose
I feel a thousand nails upon my tongue

Barricades
I wish I could forgive myself
Barricades
For my own mistakes

Extinct fire
Fallen sun
Rigid prayer pose
Nails on my tongue...

4. A Weeping Sunrise
I fell down from your protecting hands
Like a teardrop of the sun
Why did you leave this world behind?

The void is closer than ever before
Everything has changed its style
Since you've been gone
This planet has stopped turning around my heart
I am paralysed by the deadness of silence
When I look at this empty chair in front of me
And when I lose myself in memories of you and me
'Cause here is nothing except time

Wordless bleakness
The good times are anchored deep inside
In the end
Why did you leave this world behind?

So many great moments will never come back

A pale sun slips through the cracks
A weeping sunrise - a mournful sky

I fell down from your protecting hands
Like a teardrop of the sun
Why did you leave this world behind?

Now everything hurts
Our history has been rewritten
With the blood of your sleeping heart
With a feather of your broken wings

This is our last goodbye under a darkened sky!

I'm paralysed since you're gone
Why did you leave this world behind?

Now everything hurts
Our history has been rewritten
With the blood of your sleeping heart
With a feather of your broken wings

Why did you leave this world behind?

A weeping sunrise

5. Between Silence and Shards
Along the road to myself
Between silence and shards
This path is empty and cold
'Cause my world is torn apart

An endless journey without a goal
I run in circles in a dead end street
Between silence and shards

Like a ghost in the fog
Invisible and insignificant
So far away from home
Between silence and shards...

I'm between silence and shards... forever!

I am the dark between silence and shards
I run in circles in a dead end street

Where is the light in these black times?
I'm feeling like a burnt out candle

Searching for myself
At the end of my world
Between silence and shards
So far away, in the exile of my heart
Despite broken wings I want to be free
So far away... from silence and shards...

Like a ghost in the fog
Invisible and insignificant
So far away from home
Far away from home

An endless journey without a goal
I run in circles in a dead end street

Where is the light in these black times?
I'm feeling like a burnt out candle

Searching for myself
At the end of my world
Between silence and shards
So far away, in the exile of my heart
Despite broken wings I want to be free
So far away... between silence and shards...

Searching for myself
Like a ghost in the fog
So far away from home

6. Dress.Code.Black
Silent days
Days of emptiness
I am alone
For too long

I am the product of the acid rain
Designed under the clouds of society
A burnt out candle among so many lights
The poisoned apple that no one needs

Too dark for this flickering world
Dresscode black

Wasted years
Years of nothingness
The past seems to be meaningless
Therefore I am too dark for this flickering world
Too dark to unfurl my light

Weeping cold eyes
Eyes that mourn behind a mask
Mask of frustration and darkness
No one shall see the flowing tears
Yes, it's true - I'm not able to be like you

I am the product of the acid rain
Designed under the clouds of society
A burnt out candle among so many lights
The poisoned apple that no one needs

Too dark for this flickering world
Dresscode black

Silent days
Days of emptiness
Yes, it's true
I'm not able to be like you

7. Hymn of Sorrow
"Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light."

It's so cold here in the dark
I admit, I've banished the sun
Here, at the abyss of my existence
I don't know what I have become

Bleeding heart
Sad flickering eyes
All hope is torn apart
Silent breath
Passive and bored
Lost in the arms of death

Sometimes it feels like an endless dream
And I wonder who's the dreamer of my life

So many wasted tears
An ocean full of shards
Sometimes I count the countless pieces
The pieces of my broken heart

And even if my heart stops beating
Or if the world goes down forever
My life will end but the void will remain
'Cause every self-portrait needs a frame

So many wasted tears
An ocean full of shards
Sometimes I count the countless pieces
The pieces of my broken heart

At the abyss of my existence
What have I become?

Bleeding heart
Silent breath
Torn apart
Arms of death...

8. The Downward Path
I walk the downward path
There is nothing left to lose
In this overdosed world of transience
I am nothing, I am just a fucking lie
So I go further down into the darkness

Memories are fading
Time flies so fast
Waiting for the darkness
To put myself to rest

Yet this night is so clear
Pure and peaceful, but deceptive
In this overdosed world of sadness

I'm a black eyed man
A junkie of despair who's looking for the final shot
There is nothing left to lose
So I walk the downward path

I'm a black eyed man
Junkie of despair
Nothing left to lose
In this darkened world
I walk the downward path