ent wishes merely broken shells

Swing low, swing low
When stitched and sewn all over
Go down, go down
White scars unseen as ever

Gone to white presence seam white sewn unover
Last rose given never white thick oily scent departed
Preach to white silence dry mouth foams just slower
Worship cold bandages white moist air rainbow coloured


2. Dark Rivers Of The Heart

The rain is thrumming on
Windows soak the tears
I am so alone without her here

The rain is thrumming on
Downward-burning flame
Don't want her to know
Heaven wept again
The rain is thrumming on
Dark rivers that sear
I would want her to know
How I miss her here

I am haunted by her voice
By her eyes and by her touch
Still feeling her voracious love
Though she's gone and out of reach

Dark rivers of the heart


3. Absinthe

Take this down ca 1993
Grey dusk envelops the dying stream
Failing yet holding sway
Slowly going away

Grind me down, into the ground
Down again, when I drown
I've failed again

Absinthe always this way
Absinthe my loveless angel

Shaking nervously with intenser days
The pissant drags a bloody soul away
Building beds out of flesh
Rotting time, an empty caress

Grind me down, into the ground
Down again, when I drown
I've failed again

Absinthe always this way
Absinthe my loveless angel

A long way to go when chained to the earth
Yesterday was mourning today's a brighter dirge


4. And Deepest Sadness

Rose die with me, fruits embitter and swans drown
Summer came and passed away without a sound
But it's over now and what can I do?
Dark are the days now, all year through

Can you hear the silence
Can you feel the thorns
Can you feel the silence
Can you hear the storms

Oh you were sad then in a time long gone
Not with you I drifted off into dead zones
And you were sick back when, chasing those fears
Needed me close and still I wasn't there

Can you hear the silence
Can you feel the thorns
Can you feel the silence
Can you hear the storms

We fade away


5. Yesmine

Oh cotton girl you wind up
The sun and moon and stars
You kiss the deep night goodbye
Heal my wounds clean my scars
You infuse a deeper meaning
New colours and hues
You're my "girl on heaven hill"
God's talent put to use

All I needed, to be free
All I wanted, for us two
To hear you say the words "I do"
All I needed, to be free
All I wanted, to be with you

Yesmine, you're never mine
Yesmine, always on my mind

Oh cotton girl you draw away
Dark nights and cold lives
You take me to the boulevards
Where the rich meet to die
You exhude spiritual guidance
Blue notes for my soul
You enlight meanings hidden
With your passion and glow

All I needed, to be free
All I wanted, for us two
To hear you say the words "I do"
All I needed, to be free
All I wanted, to be with you

Yesmine, you're never mine
Yesmine, always on my mind


6. Eternal Summer

With her lion winter it is always spring
Hotel beds and hot windy summer mornings
We'll say yes to coming seasons, growth and change
I was chocked by the voracious springtime rain

You take away the pain

In your eyes I see eternal summer
In our world there'll be eternal summer

Hand in hand we met love in the apocalypse
Rhythmically lulled asleep she bit her lip
And said "when we made love on wedding day
did you feel this is for always, for always?"

You take away the pain

In your eyes I see eternal summer
In our world there'll be eternal summer

When the rain was over
Naked world uncovered
For once the sky was blue
And all I ever wanted was you


7. Cannula

You strangle me so gently I choke on your hold
Your beautiful hands all over my soul
I try to forget but you are so whole
Like a star of heaven you shine alone
If I could only hear yo say perhaps, my name
My world would never ever be the same
If I could only see you eyes, smell your dark chestnut hair
Until I can hardly see, I feel that you're here

You drive the needle you shoot up my soul
You drive the needle in a world of gold
You drive the needle

I'm washing away but the pain still shows
I'm hurting inside but the pain still grows
The memory of you makes my day feel old
A long time ago I was too cold
Call your coroners girl, I'd die for your smile
If need could be reasoned with emotions would die
But I see through the darkness, a light to my eyes
You are the spiritfire on an earth of ice

You drive the needle you shoot up my soul
You drive the needle in a world of gold
You drive the needle you shoot up soul


8. Morphine

You couldn't cut me deeper with a knife if you tried
The burden of tomorrow makes me run off and hide
You stripped me off my skin, let me know "love I come"
Glasscat lioness, now what have we done?

You and me we're in love with a lie
Morphine, morphine
You and me again that's why
Morphine, morphine

With plastic happiness comes the laughing emptiness
We've always been forgetting these magic recipes
You stripped me off my skin, let me know "love I come"
Glasscat lioness, now what have we done?

You and me we're in love with a lie
Morphine, morphine
You and me again that's why
Morphine, morphine

Putting on my oblivious helmet pretending I am dead
Trying again to sleep your words out of my head
Scratch not the surface, deep beneath the feelings lie
Reasons only reasons that can't be justified


9. A Golden Girl From Somewhere

Sometimes, somewhere, someday
Out there so far away for you
I'll be waiting, I'll be waiting

3 am, a warming rain
I saw your cheeks red with springtime fires
Visualizing you all the time, again
When you were making faces in the river

You build me up when I'm torn down
I'll try to forget when I'm under ground
But you got the cure for me, the cure I need
Here it comes again, I am overwhelmed
These days are crazy, her weather is magic

Sometimes, somewhere, someday
Out t here so far away for you
I'll be waiting, I'll be waiting

3 am a warming rain
I saw you your vivid eyes and spirit glow
Visualizing you all the time, again
When you were making angels in the snow


10. Silver

An angel with coal painted feathers washed ashore
An angel that needn't be cleansed anymore

All the earth and air with out substance smeared
On days passed heaven overflowed
Now with a thousand clouds covered
In the broad white dawn
All the lights so strangely float

From rainbow fallen in the glowworm's light
Under the bodies of dew we were still
It's all so clear, like silver from gold
Once this was our will

Silver like the ebb and tide gone by
Silver the farewells and goodbyes
This is for the stillness of empty days
For the nevers... and the always

Like the sorceress in you in the light of these thoughts
We'd stay till we ran out of fears
You gave me a world of reasons to endure
And once we were here


11. Playing In The Dark

She is burnt so badly by the flames from her heart
Devil dancing on our souls to keep up part
For the bridges we burnt, for the dreams that died
We cry, we pray

She is burnt so badly by the flames from her heart
Devil dancing on our souls to keep up part
For the days we lost, for the times we missed
We cry, we pray

With her nothing's quite what it seems
It feels like we were part of the same dream, dream of
Deep deep love and deep deep wounds
The deeper the love the deeper the wounds

She is burnt so badly by the flames from her heart
Devil dancing on our souls to keep us part
For our song unsung, for our lives undone
We cry, we pray

With her nothing's quite what it seems
It feels like we were par of the same dream, dream of
Deep deep love and deep deep wounds
The deeper the love the deeper the wounds