, he prayed
He was living with a confidence

Raped bodies is a story of the lines of thought
Of a convicted man who realized at
Last his contrition as he sat in his
Condemned cell. He drifted into the new world
Of the dreams of eschaton

Anorexia nervosa is a condition that
Leaves mentally ill people looking
Like deformed creatures

The final story is about an old woman
Who is suffering from an incurable disease
She's regressing into childish behaviour with
Alzheimer's disease

We all have to accept the
Ascension of a divine ordinance

But will this be the ascension?
Will there be a light?
Will there be our lord of heaven?


2. For Those Who Will Fail

God created a world, a world of injustice, a world of distrust
He created humans, humans of prejudice, humans with selfish-
ness
He forgot the justice, justice of humanity, justice of equali-
ty
You created our faults, pain in our bodies, weakness of our
brains

[Chorus:]
For those who will fail
Ora, uxorem, natura

We talk about humans, they couldn't live a real life
Expelled from their families in a remote closed sanitarium
They remain will they'll die
We still shun all these human beings, are we too sensitive?
Why haven't they a place in our society, who takes the blame?
We are all responsible and it's a sacrifice of our limited
system
Our system forbids us to see in their eyes and to talk to them

[Chorus]

If they are too weak for society, they will be isolated
The other ones get their revenge

Why can we not be happy to work with them, is this impossible?
When we meet these humand, we're afraid and they give us the
creeps
But later we're happy and laugh at these innocent creatures
If we would open our minds, they could be our best friends

[Chorus]


3. Living With A Confidence

I look in the mirror, I see another face
Waiting for my end will be my painful race
My appearance has altered since I consulted my surgeon
He told me about my illness, will survive one season

Drinking is what I need to forget my daily sorrow
Sadness is forgotten, will feel better tomorrow
Living with a confidence will not be better
My body is going weaker, my walking is a stagger

[Chorus:]
Jesus, I beg of thee, redeem my endless pain
Forgive my sin and save my life, that's only what I need
I prayed to you, every night, is this your thank to me?

I know you made this illness and drove me insane
It's my intention to fight this battle against you
Truth and denomination destroyed my life
There exists only hate and rage in my head

Pictures of my childhood cross my brain all the time
Happiness was easy, there weren't evil minds
Sadness was a foreign word, I never felt better
I played with my friends, day in, day out

I've got a lot of thoughts about my future
My body's a piece of misery, I'm crippled like a creature
Perishing in my bed and watching children play
Shall I wait for my end, will this be the right way
My torment is getting stronger, suicide is my solution
Nobody will cry for me, they will treat me like a felon
Everybody has forsaken me, delivery is my knife
Will suicide be the way to search for a new life

[Chorus]


4. Raped Bodies

Father and mother divorced as I began the school in hamilton
We had the same problem every night with daddy's addiction
Violence and drunkeness reigned his every day and made us down
I felt really distraught as he finally left our home

The time after was difficult, I felt rather unnerved

Because of my ugly appearance, they treated me like a fool
A misfit, I was derided by the girls of our school
I reached the height of my mental quandary
More and more I shied away and went my lonely way

The time of retaliation will come
Fear, pain, torment
They will come
Admiration, worship
They will treat me like a god

To talk with my schoolmates about girls was an abomination
Possessing a girl was my biggest sexual imagination
I had realized that this idea could never be reality
Dazzled through my sexual lust I planned many different stra-
tegies

I possessed no bad conscience only one aim in my eyes

The act of cruelty considered the last details in my mind
A long time to wait for the sunset and the sacrifice made me
blind
She was my number one girl, young with her long fair hair
I struck her and dragged her body to the thicket where I raped
her

At this moment you were my girl and my dream was reality
She saw my face, there was no other choice but to kill her
Only now I had understood what I had done
I left the scene of the crime quickly and went home

I can't live with the thoughts that I killed a young girl

This was my past but I'm not proud about now
Although I killed a girl, they couldn't give me a life senten-
ce
After one year in the youth custody unit I will be free
Fortunately we all live in a cracked system where you can kill


5. Lines Of Thought Of A Convicted Man

The time has come to tell you about my deed
No way to understand how long my heart has bled
I see my life in pictures torments and pleasures
Survived through many conflicts my life gives me no pleasures

My life will not be over, although I'm cast down
It will begin now, the other way around
I let self-drift from my sexual feelings
They are too important for human beings


6. Contrition

For two weeks, I was sitting in the prison cell
Iron gates obstruct the way to be free
Now, I've enough time to think about my offence
This deed was dreadful and I deeply regret it

I don't like to talk about the things that happened
My mind has drifted to this transgression

The pictures of the offence reflect in my brain
Only now I'm realizing what I have done
Horrible nightmares constantly cross my sleep
At the time it's really hard to live in the cell

Tears run over my cheeks
I've never noticed that before
This is a serious situation
Never could I imagine
I killed an innocent girl
She had the right to live
So I have it too
I know that's my crime
Although the people
Are not blameless

I have the chances ruined for my future
It will be hard to find a new job
My name is murder, it says too much
Everybody will get out of my way

Lost the power, destroyed my pride
My life is ruined, lose my future

My mother left me to my fate
She will have nothing more to do with me
I don't know what the time will bring
When I leave the prison in one year


7. Condemned Cell

Murder and manslaughter ruled my life
Eliminated my enemies and killed my wife
Nothing to lose, I'm condemned to death
Enjoy the prison, till my last breath

Either you kill or you will be killed, this was my sacred
system
No possibility to live with these rules, I followed my wisdom
I have no regrets about my evil deeds, this was the way to
exist
Wriggle my neck out of the noose could make an artist

My fate is decided life or death
I whil away the time with games of chess
I wished for a better end not to wait for my execution
My name will be deleted this will be my termination

It's gruesome to wait for the unknown, I don't know my fate
Killing time and wait for mercy, that's what I hate
Living in fear and trepidation there's hope yet
I'm in fear of god, he has decided about my punishment

Many years passed all of these were past
Nothing has changed, every evening could be last
Apathy becomes apparent, I feel so brainless
I know for certain, I will die a natural death


8. Dreams Of Eschaton

[instrumental]


9. Anorexia Nervosa

Time of puberty
Age of quandary
Sorrow and worries

Disagreement
Predicament
I enigmatize

Weakness overcomes my body, my brain's so empty
I lose my appetite, day in day out
My body's deeply marked, I'm undernourished

[Chorus:]
Mental changes, my mind is splitting
Inferiority complexes, time to confess
Pride and power, is giving me the hunger
Depr4ession and apathy, is changing my spirit

Time to go hungry
It gives me great joy
Pleasure and satisfaction

To fight against
My hunger pangs
Gives me pride

Feeling of sheer terror
To see me in the mirror
I could be so fat

Every pound I lose
Helps me on the course
To my sheer perfection

I don't realize how bad my body's feeling
My eyes see only my perfect slim body
But really I'm a half-starved skeleton

[Chorus]


10. Deformed Creatures

Humans born healthy
We converse all the time
Humans born deformed
We avoid all of them

Your body's crippled, your face deformed
Your hand's mutilated, your skin's burnt
My body's well-shaped, my face is striking
My hand's delicate, my skin's very neat

I can't see in your eyes
Why don't you look at me?
You don't belong in our society
You belong in a closed sanatorium

I'm shocked by your body
You're angry at our refusal
I'm horrified by your face
You're infurious at our inequity

[Chorus:]
All dreadful beings are creations of god
God has decided you'll live as a clod

God has decided, ill or healthy
He forgot justice
Was this the life you wished for
Spending your life in a closed sanatorium

[Chorus]


11. Alzheimer's Disease

For fifty-two years
We have been married
We've had a lucky life
But now the problems have begun

[Chorus:]
She's really changed, I can't understand my wife
What's happened with her mind
She keeps forgetting things
I realize the degeneration of her memory
Her lack of independence
Distractedness, personality decline
Obstructions of recollections

The years pass slowly
A lot has changed in my life
She's living with a persecution complex
My wife's a total physical wreck

[Chorus]

She's regressing more and more
Her behaviour is like infancy
I see only a grown-up foetus

Nobody will help her
I know she will die
By the alzheimer's disease


12. Ascension Of A Divine Ordinance

I see the crusade of mentally disturbed persons
All kinds of mutilated and distraught human beings
Drag alone to the shrouded legend realm

They are suspended high over the burning earth
And leave their earthly existance for their new life

You were redeemed of your worldly torments
Torments of isolation, injustice, lies
Maltreatment, abandonment, mutilation and genocide

Choirs of redemption resound through the sky
Tombones complete the ascent of the deformed creatures

The way is far
Their bodies soar

Angels appear and escort them to their new life
Feelings of pleasure, releif and blissfulness

With their white vestment they look so innocent
They embody the pure joie de vivre
Which they had missed in their past life

The cherubs lead the crusade to the dark tunnel
At the end of the tube, there is a bright light

This will be the end of their long trip
To the unknown fourth dimension
Nobody knows what's behind the light
And what they will do there

They are suspended so easily together with the angels
I'm losing sight of the ones right at the front

They suffered
Since the beginning
Now they've left the
Earthly existence

The ascent brings
Eternal bliss
To everyone
On the crusade

You're still asking yourself, will it be better, the new life?
Will you get the chance to live a normal life?
Were you living a bad life as a person, in your life before?
Your biggest dream was to see god, when you arrived at the
gates of heaven
Can you see him?